Going to be blunt here and yes transparent...it's been a rough "Mom" week. I hate having those rough weeks at any time but it is especially rough to have one during my most favorite season of all - Christmas!!! Yet, this is the reality of my week. Can you relate? I am sure if all of us were brutally honest - we would say YES!
Let me share with you my rough "mom" week...
As many of you know, we made a big decision this year to homeschool Tyler. It wasn't a quick decision and it wasn't an easy decision but it was one we knew as parents that needed to be made. Tyler struggles. He can only read at about a First Grade level, he has trouble connecting what he sees from one page to another and he just has to work so hard for even the smallest bit of success. This week, we were working on reading the same book over and over for fluency and to learn some more difficult words....and then, well he just hit a wall. He melted down, I melted down, it wasn't fun! Words that he had no issues with, were now some of the most difficult words to deal with. The simplest of words, to him were as tough as a 15 letter word. I began to wonder - are we making ANY progress? Is it even worth it? Why am I even homeschooling him - I am not a professional...
If you have ever watched your child struggle with school - you know how heart wrenching it can be. For me, to watch my 13 yr. old son work so hard at something that a 5 yr. old can do with no issues is tough!
Next up for the rough week - my daughter loves softball!!! We were first introduced to softball when Kestra was about 5 years old and she fell in love with it! As is common in a life of ministry, we have moved frequently and so at times she hasn't been able to play and certainly hasn't had the consistency of playing with the same team for multiple years. However, she loves the sport and we have tried to keep her in it whenever possible. She is a Freshman in High School and of course wanted to play softball! She enrolled in Athletics to play and we were told from multiple people that there wouldn't be cuts because there were never enough girls playing! At the parent meeting we discovered that wasn't the case...52 girls signed up for softball, only about 35 would make a team. UGH! Long story short - we found out yesterday that she didn't make the team. Here I am going to be honest with you - I was so disappointed and bummed - more than SHE was! Her attitude is "I will work hard and try again." My attitude was "Why? Why is it always our kids that get cut from a team?" (yes, we have had it happen before.) Her attitude was a lot better! Ha ha! Anyway, this was just a rough "Mom Moment" for me.
My heart has been heavy. With discouragement, with disappointment, with heartache. Yet, through it all - HE IS THERE! This is what I love about God...in our rough moments, He hears. He is there. He is carrying us. One of my life verses has been Jeremiah 29:11 - what I need to remember and you need to remember in the rough Mom moments is that this verse is not only for us - it is for our kids. God has plans for them. He knows. He has a future and a hope.
So Mom this is for you in your rough moments - no matter how big or how small...God has a plan for you and for your child!!!